I have been reading lately about feminization and the male feminine side.
“It is far from uncommon for a male to be curious about women, how they dress, and what it feels like for a woman. Her beauty alone captivates men, and more often than not, it intrigues him. He wants to understand why she is so captivating, why her beauty causes him to feel so good, and aroused. Not all submissive men are interested in exploring their feminine side, they simply desire to submit, and generally have a higher tolerance for pain and may enjoy fetishes more in that direction. Typically a submissive male that does want to explore his feminine side, is more gentle, less about pain, and more about intimacy, sensuality, and understanding her. His submissive desire will absolutely love it, it will invigorate him, it will make him feel more alive, and in touch with his body.”
Being a cuckold is being a part of a broad spectrum of sexuality. My last few blog post have me thinking about accepting myself, who I am and my sexual journey. I have been thinking more and more about my posts about insecurities.
Cuckolding and the play we have included with it for me has been a way to take control of my insecurities and turn them into something that sexually pleases me.
Through my relationship with my wife and past sexual decisions I have been able to experience a broad world of sexuality and discover the pleasures of sex throughout its spectrum. Not only vanilla sex, but a world of sexual experience that has driven me deeper into the most sensual, satisfying pleasures that otherwise would have been missed out if I was a standard hetro guy.
When I think about exploring my feminine side, I think about sharing the experiences with my wife that her and I have with other men. I think about small changes over the years. The pleasure I get being sexually dominated, the confidence, the sexy feeling I get when I have my body waxed, the naughty fun, the hidden secret of wearing panties, a cage or a plug underneath my clothing.
When did all this begin? I am not sure, but when I think of my insecurities more they have all been sexual. I have always had hidden skeletons in the closet. Hiring erotic misuses, being dominated and sexually used by a middle age male, playing the dominant bull, my desire to be cuckolded by my wife.
When I laid eyes my wife, I fell in love at first sight and over the years all skeletons have been let out and I have never felt more happy sexually. She is my everything, I will never tire of her body or of having sex with her, she is my sexual goddess.
Letting out skeletons though have also brought back desires. I enjoyed the naughtiness of illicit sex, I enjoyed being dominated and used sexually by a middle age male. I have always been insecure about enjoying these parts of my sex life. Then my wife helped set these insecurities free.
I took a Sissy Test a few years ago, it was just for fun. The result, I’m not a sissy, I am a filthy little slut. I actually felt and feel good about this, it is true and I have no regrets. I have had times of feelings of shame, some were part of the fun. But sexuality can’t be a source of negativity impacting ones overall self-esteem. It should do the very opposite. Whether you yearn to be a submissive horny slut, one who likes to be dominated and used as a vessel for pleasure.
“Like ying and yang, every person has a masculine side and a feminine side to a degree. Sissies get to really touch into their inner femininity and thus they get a deeper experience in exploring their on minds and bodies. By being able to express our feminine side we learn more about who we are, learn more about the female gender and experience life in a deeper level. Fashion legend Tom Ford famously said that every man should experience bottoming at least one in his life; I think it would help them understand women, it’s such a vulnerable position to be in, and it’s such a passive position to be in. And there’s such an invasion, in a way, that even if it’s consensual, it’s just very personal. So then a sissy gets to really delve into their feminine side and experience what it is to be penetrated, entered and submitting their bodies – this is sexually intrinsic and enables us to get in touch with our true selves.”
As a submissive male I can understand this, I can desire this. I have allowed myself to dive into a deep level of self-exploration and sexual exploration with my wife and it has given us profoundly enriching experiences. Over the many years of cuckolding, being a submissive male has allowed me to explore my mind as well as my body, learning the things which sexually excite me, yearning to submit and to be a happy cuckold. I have learned to overcome my insecurities, embracing my sexual weaknesses as a sexual gift.
To end I read this below paragraph which I think sums it up nicely.
“His feminine side can make him a better and a stronger man, even as a submissive to his partner. He may never even have to show feminine traits outside the house, but exploring that aspect of his being will change his perspective on the world entirely, with deeper respect for women, and a deeper love for his partner. It will prove to him that the idea of being a submissive male, or that anything feminine is not weak at all. It is simply unexplored and misunderstood. A man who has explored his feminine side, will have unlocked a whole lot of wisdom within himself. A man who understands himself, understands the world. We cannot change the world, but we can change ourselves, and that is the most powerful act a human being can do. Exploring his feminine side will change him drastically, for the better. True strength comes from vulnerability, when we don’t have to hide who we are.”
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